Some anniversaries suck....

Today marks the 12 month "anniversary" of my mum passing. Her death was sudden and is something that I don't think I'll ever get over.

Mum's best friend described her as a very wise woman, and she was. Wise, funny and the best mother that a child could ever have - the three of us were very lucky to have her.

She loved my sister, brother and I with all her heart. No matter what, she was supportive of who we are and what we each did with our lives.

Mum never interfered or tried to tell us what to do, all she wanted was for us to be happy.

So I'm going to live my life in honour of her. I'm going to be the good person that she raised me to be, and I'm going to be happy....

2013 - My Year....

To say that the last 18 months have been pretty sucky is an understatement. My dad passed away towards the end of 2011 and my mum died last year.

The loss of my parents kicked off a chain reaction for me. I've re-evaluated my life and found that I wasn't living the life I wanted. I've made some huge life decisions and now find myself single and ready to live life to the fullest.

I'm going to start doing things I've always wanted to do, go places, experience things. Basically, I'm determined that this year is going to be my year.

To kick things off I'm going to start getting myself healthier. It's time to lose weight, get fitter and live a healthier, more active lifestyle.

So get ready 2013, here I come....

Father's Day

Tomorrow is Father's Day. Normally I'm into the whole thing, but this year is different. This is the first Father's Day since my Dad passed away last November.

There's been no card hunting (looking for the funniest card I can find) or plan for an early morning phone call to wish him happy Father's Day.

The build up to Father's Day has made me sad and drove home to me how much I miss my Dad.

So this Father's Day I will think about all the awesome times I had with him and how lucky I was to have him in my life.

Happy Father's to all the Dad's out there....

Family and Friends

My mum had this habit of telling the same story 100 times, especially as she got older.

Now that she is no longer with us, I would give anything to hear each of those stories that 101st time.

Appreciate the people in your life that you care about because they won't be with you forever and when they're gone they will take a piece of you with them that you can never get back.

Lessons learnt....

This week has taught me some lessons, the kind that only life can teach you.

I don't always have to be strong, the tough one who stays together.

It's not a sign of weakness to embrace my vulnerability, to allow myself to grieve, to show my pain.

Tears aren't something to be ashamed of, they show our joy, our sadness and the depth of our love.

Yes, this week has taught me a lot of lessons about myself and who I thought I was.